One of my blog posts was published on The Mighty. That’s exciting for me. I’m also going acute inpatient for suicidal urges and self harming. I am going in today. I’ll be back soon. I’m sure I’ll do some writing while I’m there, so maybe I’ll return with a masterpiece lol!
This is a revision of a post that I wrote a few hours ago, but I just made it private. It tells of my brokenness and it is a full blown suicide note. No one reads this anyway, so I could have just left it up. Clearly, I did not follow through. This doesn’t mean […]
The wreckage of her soul is poetic. Her verses cascade from her eyes in iambic pentameter. Her survival is a fiery resilience, that engulfs her parchment; each page set aflame and extinguished in her storm. There is beauty in how she rises from her ruins, in the midst of her own destruction.
On days like this, I am the house and the ghost, responsible for my own haunting. My brain is a revolver with, “Am I good enough?” in every chamber. So I turn into a factory that only makes the word “yes” and I say it until I can easily Mistake it for the truth, but […]
I rise out of the chasm. My feet are firm, securely lodged on solid terrain. I am recuperating, but I remain unsteady. The wind caresses my hair, teasing and testing my verve. With a solitary squall, I collapse. The force is cataclysmic. All radiance wavers into obscurity again. I plummet at Gravity’s command. It’s heavy […]
I’ve learned that no matter how good things are externally, there will always be an internal fight for people like me. The wonder of the darkness is that it comes with an equivalent light. Unfortunately, it’s impossible to determine which will be dominant in our lives or for how long. You’re not alone.