published and hospitalized

One of my blog posts was published on The Mighty. That’s exciting for me. I’m also going acute inpatient for suicidal urges and self harming. I am going in today.  I’ll be back soon.  I’m sure I’ll do some writing while I’m there, so maybe I’ll return with a masterpiece lol!  

the struggle

I’ve learned that no matter how good things are externally, there will always be an internal fight for people like me.  The wonder of the darkness is that it comes with an equivalent light. Unfortunately, it’s impossible to determine which will be dominant in our lives or for how long. You’re not alone.

cae

You pulse through my veins. Icy, as you trek the lines your fingers once graced. Left behind is the chill of the memory of your touch. Aching is the hollow amid my breasts; aching for you. Left behind is the heart you shattered. You fucking broke every inch of my being. You walked away, never […]

The Birth of a Rainbow

  That night was darker than usual.   I blame the gloom and despair that weighed down my spirit.   I woke from a restless sleep, feeling excruciating pain.   This was it.   This was what the doctor said would happen.   My less than 2% of hope disappeared and stole an enormous piece of my heart.   My body […]