Growing up, I have always been told a story about how my mom abducted me and my big brother. She took off to Texas with another man and took us with them. The police couldn’t find us and no one knew if we were safe for a few days. My mom called my dad to […]
My stepdad, Kenneth Shank, existed and I loved him. He committed suicide on August 16, 2006. Every concrete memory I had of him was lost in my divorce. They were in a special box that belonged to my ex husband where we kept things like that safe. I haven’t seen them in years. All I […]
I was released from the hospital yesterday. I learned so much about my condition while I was in there. I learned what I need to do to get better and how to do it. A lot of self love is involved. That’s what’s missing in my life. I don’t have much to write tonight. I’m […]
One of my blog posts was published on The Mighty. That’s exciting for me. I’m also going acute inpatient for suicidal urges and self harming. I am going in today. I’ll be back soon. I’m sure I’ll do some writing while I’m there, so maybe I’ll return with a masterpiece lol!
I’ve read it more times than I can count. Each time I open the front cover, I can’t turn away from the pages. This time was no different. I didn’t stop reading until the book ended. Esther Greenwood’stransformation from wallflower to woman with no fucks to give always makes me feel better about myself. […]
I’ve spent 11 years running from my diagnosis. I’ve tried to conceal my truth, hoping I could will it away. I didn’t want it. My biological mother has it and she abandoned her children. I’m nothing like her, so it’s not possible that I have borderline personality disorder. I’ve been seeing my current therapist […]
I don’t deserve forgiveness.
That’s the view of Lake Ouachita from my campsite. I took an impromptu trip back home for Mother’s Day camping. I love it out here. The kids are gathering wood while I get the fire going. I did the same with my dad out here many times when I was a child. Truth is, they’re […]