“The weight of what you’re going through is bigger than your will to change.” So much fucking truth in that lyric. I can’t get better. Advertisements
23 and Me is doing a study for depression and bipolar. In exchange for a DNA sample, monthly surveys, and monthly cognitive activities; participants receive a free full ancestry and health analysis. My results were posted earlier this week. Wanna see? You can read my full ancestry report here!!!
I’m hurting today. My heart’s beating and I just need his to beat again. I need to feel his weight in my empty arms. I find myself pleading with God, bargaining my life away in exchange for one night of life in his tiny body. Breath in the unexpanded lungs. Why can’t I just have […]
Growing up, I have always been told a story about how my mom abducted me and my big brother. She took off to Texas with another man and took us with them. The police couldn’t find us and no one knew if we were safe for a few days. My mom called my dad to […]
My stepdad, Kenneth Shank, existed and I loved him. He committed suicide on August 16, 2006. Every concrete memory I had of him was lost in my divorce. They were in a special box that belonged to my ex husband where we kept things like that safe. I haven’t seen them in years. All I […]
I was released from the hospital yesterday. I learned so much about my condition while I was in there. I learned what I need to do to get better and how to do it. A lot of self love is involved. That’s what’s missing in my life. I don’t have much to write tonight. I’m […]
One of my blog posts was published on The Mighty. That’s exciting for me. I’m also going acute inpatient for suicidal urges and self harming. I am going in today. I’ll be back soon. I’m sure I’ll do some writing while I’m there, so maybe I’ll return with a masterpiece lol!
I’ve read it more times than I can count. Each time I open the front cover, I can’t turn away from the pages. This time was no different. I didn’t stop reading until the book ended. Esther Greenwood’stransformation from wallflower to woman with no fucks to give always makes me feel better about myself. […]